My Mama

I remember parts of that day and my feelings, but much of it is just a blurred sense of what was going on. But, it changed my life forever.

I have missed you at my wedding, the birth of my kids, and my graduation. My children know you through pictures and stories and a video I have of you reading Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day to your class. I think of you often this year as I homeschool the boys and teach your grade you taught for so long, 3rd. I even have your last lesson plan book, though I don't look at it often.

As I tell B and O more about you, I come to a greater realization of just who you were. You sacrificed so much for me and while at times it sacrificed our time together, you always tried to find a way to make it up. Yes, I was spoiled, and yes, I was a brat. And you put up with all of that. Thank you, Mom, for guiding me during my younger years. For all of the English papers that you listened to and all of the sentences that you dictated to me for my spelling words. You are forever in my heart, and while the memories dim so much, the fondness of your love will never be forgotten.

Yes, I know she is sleeping in the grave. But, at this special point in time, I need to get my feelings out as I see how special my mother was. I pray that today will have a moment of reflection in her honor.